January 2010
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Keeping Post-it Notes
My mother’s wedding got swung back a few months… Four months. Now not only is her wedding two weeks away, but it’s on Valentines day! So much for my grand plan, eh? I wonder if I have time to make my sexy dress by then… Probably not but it’s ok, I have that red and white pillow case dress/shirt.
I never told Sierra to her face that I was exiting her life forever. I...
Ice and Salt
The battle between practicality and emotions has begun. The two of them sat there holding hands and kissing as I watched them from above. She was too afraid to tell the truth and so She just didn’t say it at all.
The more she said about her Previous commitment, the further he moved. And soon enough he wasn’t even paying attention. Even I could see his mind wandering from ice cap to ice...
“I think I broke it.”
“Don’t Think Twice, It’s...
Losing to Reflexes
I was only trying to suprise him with the little song I sent. I thought it’d be a cute idea, that maybe he would like it. But instead I scared him. I scare boys often… I scare them because I guess I’m too… romantic? Too loving? Too clingy maybe?
It is a pattern that I have created since the rotten sixteens. I’m almost at the big one eight. I am a week and 3 days from...
“You make me feel really bad.”
“Would it be weird if … som ti povedala ze ta mam velmi rada? This girl...”
“We just dropped about ten degrees south. I’m still stuck in fairy land.”
The Sky is Gray
It is painful to see myself go ahead and make the same mistakes I’ve always made. I messed up again and I am sorry again. I do feel stupid just sitting here next to the handcrafted card I made him and my lonely electronics, staring face up as if expecting a call back. It’s important for people to know that I try very hard. I always do my best until I slip on the ice chunks.
I know...
Tangerine by Herb Alpert & The Tijuana Brass.
“Mi Ranita!”
– L.
“Go ahead and try to figure me out. I bet you never will.”
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Paint My Heart Over
It is about time for the colors to shift back to their natural reds and oranges. No, I don’t mean seasons or fashion trends, but I am speaking of my heart. My heavy silver soul is quickly melting off its ice and turning gold again. It happens when I read the text messages, the emails, and answer the phone. I set him a private ring tone of a Dean Marting song, “Walkin’ My Baby...
“I thought that by knowing more about you that I’d get too scared and walk...”
– Me about You.
“Yeah! Yeah! Yeah!” by Peggy Lee
...
“You intimidating creature of mystery and delight. I want you in my life and with...”
– Me2You
A Girl Like Me →
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Analyzing a Phone Call
It is my last official day as a highschool student. Independent study has treated me well. It might have actually saved me life! It migh have actually saved somebody else’s life too! I am very grateful to Mr. Tim Sbranti for having such a positive attitude and helping me get from bad to better. I would also like to thank him for his patience and understanding of me, even despite his busy...
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Scattered Bits of Sugar
Personal is a word that casts a shadow over certain definitions of important words to me. Maybe I am hesitant because I’m afraid of not being able to move my body from the couch again. Maybe I’m so willing because I’m afraid it’ll be my only real chance. Maybe I just want to prove something to myself. Maybe I just really want it. I really want it because I get the...
The Times They Are A Changin’, by Simon and...
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A Gentle Rumble
As I awoke from my nap just now, I had no idea what time it was. I had three new text messages in my inbox and a Facebook alert on my iPod touch. After a quick read of the texts, I saw the digital numbers 10:03. It was still Tuesday. Sean and Zach were both texting me about different things. Zach was talking about flirting with thirty year old women, and Sean recalled a memory from a few years...
Hang On Little Tomato, by Pink Martini. Somebody...
“Despite his continual progression within the school of destruction, despite his...”
– The Discreet Pleasures of Rejection, by Martin Page
It's Almost Three
Where I am now it’s almost three am. For my dad it’s almost twelve noon. How strange it is, that time is different at different places in the world. I’ve always thought the most perplexing time change was the one between California and Asia. I mean, a whole day apart? I just don’t get it…
I used to be an avid blogger on MySpace, but since somebody mentioned this site...
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Tonight and Almost
There are no better adjectives to describe the way I’m feeling right now than anxious, excited, and impatient. I want to be in that new house already, I want to get a text from you again, I want to stroll down the street with a smile fixed on my face. Goodness, how this youth is treating me. I’m just not sure how I can tell you or if I even should, that I want to be your girl. Please...